Tomorrow is the big day...I am getting more and more nervous, yet still excited. I start questioning why I would want to go through this...I must be insane (although I did pass the psych eval) . I am sitting here thinking about ALL the food I will never again eat...thats a scary thought. Food is like a best friend I guess, everything is starting to hit me as to how serious this is. Am I strong enough to do this? YES I am! I know I am and I will be successful. I am doing this for me! For once I am focused on me and I deserve it. Hopefully this will dramatically help my kidney disease and better my life in the long run. The plan is to lose the weight and start to taper off the meds one by one until they are gone. Then my kidneys will work perfectly, I will be healthier, and Dan and I could start a family that we have been wanting so long for! God had worked in tremendous ways by letting this all happen to us so quickly.
As I have less than 24 hours I am thinking how much stuff I need for this new life...
1st: Clean all the junk out of the cabnets/fridge at home...trash can here we come!
2nd: Buy healthier food that is good for me and Dan...My new food motto came from my surgeon...If it didnt live or grow on this Earth, then do not eat it!
3rd: Get a food scale...portion size is key to success
4th: Timer to remind myself to eat (never had to do this before) LOL
5th: Stay positive!
I am having a lot of emotions at the moment. Scared...excited...nervous...worried...stressed...happy...an so many more! Its hard to explain how I am feeling, but all I know is tomorrow everything will be better once I am out of surgery and starting to recover. Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers. I am lucky to have such amazing family and friends to support me through this. I love you ALL! XOXO
I love you and I believe in you!!!!!
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