I am doing great! I know everyone wants to know the numbers so here they are....So far I have lost a total of 131 pounds!!! Since the day of surgery, which was August 2, 2010, I have lost 96 pounds! This is amazing to me, that in a little over 6 months I have lost so much weight! I have been kind of slacking on my exercise, and I know that I can not do this or I will fall right back into the "old me." Sometimes its hard for other to understand I think. I can not even explain the feeling, but the gym sometimes makes me feel like I am trying to become something I'm not. I am trying to be heathy, so I will be able to start a family...but its just a feeling that I can not describe. I feel bad, and I had a moment today where I realized I need to take ownership of the new me. This is me now, and how I will be for the rest of my life. Weightloss and such a change in self image is a lot harder emotionally than I ever thought. I still feel fat, and I still do not feel pretty at times. I know that a lot has changed but when will the emotions come around and I will be able to 100% enjoy being the new me. I don't know what else to say about the emotions, it is just so many changes in such little time. It's hard for me to even wrap my fingers around how much my life has changed. As for other health issues, I go see my nephrologist (kidney doctor) on March 1, 2011. I have not seen him for a few months, and I really hope that all my labs are good, and we can keep moving in the right direction. I will give a update after that appointment. :)
Other than that stuff, my life is pretty great at the moment. Dan and I are great, just waiting until my 1 year since surgery so we can hopefully start a family. August can not come soon enough!! We are both in school full time, and the RN job issue is getting better with time. I am able to help educate my patients on the importance of being heathy, and I can speak with them about personal experiences, and this can hopefully give them the hope that they too can get back to a healthier state.
Ohh I must add that I FINALLY cleaned out my closet. Dan was on my case for months regarding this issue. This was way harder than I thought it would be. Getting rid of my "fat girl" clothes was sad!! I was like can I keep this and Dan quickly said NO. I thought he was being so mean, but now I look back at that night and I am thankful he was strong enough to say no to me :) I gave away a total or 4 big moving boxes to goodwill, and now I do not have to search through all different sizes to find something to wear. It was "out with the old me, and in with the new me!" I also must add that being able to shop anywhere is way better!! I actually like shopping (never thought I would say that).
The pictures below are from the day before surgery and then today. I really only see a differnce still when I look at these side by side. So on that note, I am going to toot my own horn and say " YAY ME!! I ROCK!!" :)
P.S. Promise to post again soon :)
